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Saturday, October 11, 2003

A FISH called SELF

“No Kiddo at this moment, this is me at my most masochistic”

“Bill’ in the prologue of “Kill Bill” talking to THE BRIDE


What happens when our minds are exposed- engaged in a tough soliloguy and nobody is listening?


OoPyroguy00: nimrod
OoPyroguy00: im psycho
OoPyroguy00: psychic
OoPyroguy00: I mean
OoPyroguy00: I am at home
OoPyroguy00: yeah I can be both
OoPyroguy00: watch...
OoPyroguy00: hi shadow
OoPyroguy00: who wants to suck my balls for me?
OoPyroguy00: is that noone?
OoPyroguy00: do I stand out?
OoPyroguy00: well yalls all know when I talk
OoPyroguy00: im very sad...
OoPyroguy00: me & my g/f broke up yesterday
OoPyroguy00: but she made me decide to break up
OoPyroguy00: cuz I knew it would bebest to for her
OoPyroguy00: for a little while
OoPyroguy00: 16
OoPyroguy00: Y?
OoPyroguy00: cuz I rite like a 10 y old?
OoPyroguy00: who baby?
OoPyroguy00: you should have seen 7 meet this one
OoPyroguy00: she was like once in a lifetime thing...
OoPyroguy00: I fought so hard to get her, and then its over just like that...
OoPyroguy00: my own doing...
OoPyroguy00: and she was moving away this summer
OoPyroguy00: so think things over..
OoPyroguy00: hell ya I’m pissed
OoPyroguy00: I didn’t do nothin, it was her ed
OoPyroguy00: ex
OoPyroguy00: got her pregnant & left her
OoPyroguy00: and I was looking for him
OoPyroguy00: Im still looking
OoPyroguy00: not even a month yet
OoPyroguy00: sonic, shut the fuck up
OoPyroguy00: basterd ass piece of dog shit
OoPyroguy00: Im in no mood to messaround
OoPyroguy00: fuck you sonic
OoPyroguy00: I’ll be bak

Source: transcript from an AOL online chat session (respondents removed)


Prologue from Quentin Tarantino’s ‘KILL BILL’ (actions and dialogue removed)

THE BRIDE (V.O.) Looked dead, didn't I? Well I wasn't, but it wasn't for lack for trying, I can tell you that. Actually Bill's last bullet put me in a coma. A coma I was to lie in for five years. When I woke up, ...I went on what the movie advertisements refer to as a Roaring Rampage of Revenge. I roarded and I rampaged and I got bloody satisfaction. In all, I've killed 33 people to get to this piont right now. I have only one more. The last one. The one I'M driving to right now. The only one left. And when I arrive at my destination..... .... I'm gonna Kill Bill.

THE BRIDE Nikki. What a pretty name for such a pretty little girl. How old are you Nikki?

THE BRIDE Four years old, aye. You know I once had a little girl. She'd be five right now. Maybe you two could have played with each other.

THE BRIDE Yeah, sure.

THE BRIDE Both, please.

THE BRIDE (V.O.) This Pasadena homemaker's name is Jeanne Bell. Her husband is Dr. Lawrence Bell. But back when we were acquainted, five years ago, her name was VERNITA GREEN. Her code name, was "COBRA"..... Mine was BLACK MAMBA.

THE BRIDE Were you expecting me?

THE BRIDE You suppose correctly.

THE BRIDE Oh. I'm quite positive you're sorry, now.

THE BRIDE You can relax for now. I'm not going to murder you in front of your daughter.

THE BRIDE Well that's a demonstration of Bill's complete ignorance when it comes to the subject of me, and what I'm thinking, and what I might do. It's mercy, compassion, and forgiveness I lack, not rationality.

THE BRIDE I'll wait for now, but I won't wait for long. I'll allow you to choose a time and place for us to meet again, preferably as far away from Nikki as possible. I could have just HIT you, I didn't, I demand respect for that. Since this is not a HIT, consider it a DUEL. And as two former Deadly Vipers, we will observe Viper rules of honor. One on one - no help - no bushwhackin - no treacherous weapons - on weapon of choice - our skill and our bodies.

THE BRIDE - I'm not through telling you. Failure to keep our date, or duplicity of any kind, will result in me putting a xoxo hollow point bullet into the back of your skull from a window of a building across the street from Nikki's elementary school. Now, feel free to respond

THE BRIDE I don't care.

THE BRIDE -- Bitch, you can stop right there.

THE BRIDE (leans in close) Just because I have no wish to murder you before the eyes of your daughter, does not mean parading her around in front of me is going to inspire sympathy. You and I have unfinished business. And not a goddamn fuckin thing you've done in the subsequent five years - including getting knocked up - is going to change that.

THE BRIDE -- But that's where you're wrong, Vernita. I don't want to get even. To get even, even Steven. I would have to kill you, go into Nikki's room, kill her, then wait for your old man, Dr. Bell, to come home and kill him. That would make us even. No, my unborn daughter will just hafta be satisfied with your death at her mother's hands.

THE BRIDE It all depends... When do you want to die? Tomorrow? The day after tomorrow? That's about as long as I'll wait.

THE BRIDE Spendid. Where?

THE BRIDE Bill said you were one of the best ladies he'd ever seen with an edged weapon.

THE BRIDE Weapon of choice? And if you want to stick with your butcher knife, I'm cool with that.

THE BRIDE Do to your daughter, what you did to mine... (she takes her hand) ...I won't.

THE BRIDE It was not my intention to do this in front of you. For that I'm sorry. But you can take my word for it, your mother had it coming. When you grow up, if you still feel raw about it, I'll be waiting.







None of the books have time
To say how being selfless feels,
They make it sound a superior way
Of getting what you want. It isn’t at all.

Selflessness is like waiting in a hospital
In a badly-fitting suit on a cold wet morning.
Selfishness is like listening to good jazz
With drinks for further orders and a huge fire

Philip Larkin- 1960


Philip Larkin- Collected Poems- 1988 Marvell Press


posted by Walter at 10/11/2003

Wednesday, October 08, 2003

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posted by Walter at 10/08/2003

Sunday, October 05, 2003


“Art is the elimination of the unnecessary”

-Pablo Picasso-


From ART NOW- Chapter 1: “The creative Aspect”

“We must, in fact, distinquish three stages in the complete aesthetic experience before a work of art-

1. The immediate perception or apprehension of the object.
2. The reaction of the affective system to the form of the apprehended object
3. The reaction of the spectator’s mind to the conceptual nature of the object, to the “content”, that is to say, of the work of art, and to all secondary associations.

The creative aspect of art, according to this theory, is a more complicated process. Here I do not propose to follow any particular lead, but I think the general theory of the psychological school I have mentioned would allow us to distinquish the following satges of the creative process in the visual arts: they correspond very closely with the stages in other arts, such as poetry and music-

1. There is first a predisposing emotional mood, a state of readiness or awareness, perhaps a sense of the momentary availability of the unconscious levels of the mind.
2. Whilst he is in this state there come to the artist the first premonitions of a symbol, or thoughts to be expressed, not in words, but in visible and tangible material shape-perhaps “this landscape” “this dish of fruit”, perhaps only an abstract adumbration ofplanes and masses.
3. Then, as a third step, we have the mental elaboration of this symbol, the introduction or selection of images which the mind intuitively associates with the symbol, the determination of the emotional value or pressure of the images.
4. Next the artist seeks an appropriate method, including an appropriate material, by means of which he can represent the symbol.
5. Finally, there is the actual technical process of translating the mental perception into objective form- a process during which the original symbol may receive considerable modifications.

It should be observed, however, that what we in this psychological manner analyse into five consecutive and distinct stages, in actual practice takes place as an integral and inseprable activity. Moreover, the artist does not necessarily always begin at the beginning, with a vague emotional mood. He may begin at almost any stage and go backwards-he may, and very often does, begin with the material, paint or stone, and from a concentration on this, and perhaps from a playful preliminary activity with his tools, he induces the preliminary mood. But fundamental to all exact psychology of the creative process is the notion that art is the expression through the senses of states of intuition, perception or emotion, peculiar to the individual. Nowhere, in the modern psychology of art, will you find any justification for the notion that art is primarily an intellectual activity concerned with the formulation of absolute or ideal types. That art has been and still is occupied with human and spiritual values, the psychologist is willing to admit; but these have nothing to do with the nature of the aesthetic process itself. They are questions of value- values in ethics, sociology, religion or philosophy, not aesthetic values. On that dogma, supported as it is by the whole force of the modern science of art, the practice of contemporary art stands or falls.”

From: ART NOW by Sir Herbert Read (1893 – 1968) – Faber & Faber 1948


The top 10 pros and cons

A list is a testimony of ridicule. Omit those that escape your attention and you’re an ignorant fool. Include those that convey a lack of personal depth and you’re insignificant.

If an artist were to be merely “instinctive” or “primitive”, and no intellectual virtues were to be assigned to his art, art would be an everyday commitment. But as can be concluded from Herbert Read’s summary of “the creative aspect”, there are many loopholes available to the content valuation of modern art and its associated practitioners. Both the art market mechanisms- as well as an artist’s intellectual and mental properties are influencing their artistic status- past or present. Currently, more than ever, artists can mold their own resume, based not just on their artistic talents alone, but increasingly on a combination of mass psychology astuteness, salon savvyness, and media relations. Furthermore the marketing requirements of art institutions and museums, as well as the constant need for networking venues have created a “superplatform” for latter day “artists”.

I compiled two artist rankings, both representing a random order of artistic merit. One- (the pros) lists those whose voices I consider authentic, driven, and recalcitrant. These 10 artists have steadfastly pursued their own unique resume and signature, in the process of which they slowly marked their own career paths. The other ranking (the cons) represents those artists that exude ambivalence, narcissism, but most of all a vision for establishing their personal myth.

Top 10 of pro-artists

1 Pablo Picasso
2 Vincent van Gogh
3 Piet Mondriaan
4 Francisco Goya
5 Francis Bacon
6 Edvard Munch
7 Marcel Duchamp
8 Alberto Giacometti
9 Rene Magritte
10 Man Ray

Top 10 of con-artists

1 Pablo Picasso
2 Andy Warhol
3 Salvador Dali
4 Jean Cocteau
5 Josef Beuys
6 Damien Hirst
7 David Hockney
8 Keith Haring
9 Jeff Koons
10 Christo


posted by Walter at 10/05/2003